This Is Why She Never Told You That She Wanted To Date You

Girl and boy dating
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She never told you that she wanted to date you, because she isn’t used to wearing her heart on her sleeve. She isn’t used to feeling as strongly about someone as she felt about you. Honestly, she wasn’t sure how to handle the situation with you, because the feelings were all new to her. They were unexpected. Even unwanted, at times.

She never told you that she wanted to date you, because she was worried that the feelings were one-sided. Even though it seemed like you felt the same way, she wasn’t sure if you were interested in a real relationship. She was worried that you only wanted to flirt with her for a while before leaving her behind.

She never told you that she wanted to date you, because she figured it was obvious. She didn’t think coming right out and saying that she wanted to be with you would do her any good, because you could guess how she felt by the way that she joked around with you. The way that she looked at you. The way that she chased after you.

She never told you that she wanted to date you, because she didn’t want to come across as desperate. She didn’t want to embarrass herself. She wanted to look like the cool girl, the girl who was happy casually flirting with you. The girl who didn’t need a relationship label. The girl who was fine exactly the way things were.

She never told you that she wanted to date you, because at the time, it didn’t feel like it needed to be said. It felt like you two were heading in that direction anyway. It felt like it would only be a matter of time until you were together for real, regardless of whether she verbalized her feelings or not.

She never told you that she wanted to date you, because she was worried about ruining your connection. She didn’t want to act too forward and scare you away. She didn’t want to move too fast and ruin what could have been something great. So she stayed quiet instead. She held herself back from what she wanted more than anything.

She never told you that she wanted to date you, because she held onto the hope that you would make the first move. She wanted you to be the one to lean in for the first kiss. The one to admit the feelings you’ve both been pretending not to have. The one to break the silence and ask her to become your official girlfriend.

She never told you that she wanted to date you, because she was afraid. Afraid that you would disappoint her. Afraid that you would say you weren’t ready for a relationship or preferred to stay friends. Afraid that you would break her heart.

She never told you that she wanted to date you, but she regrets it now, because it’s killing her that you’re gone. TC mark

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